yep. that's right, folks! i've changed my blog!!! and in case u're wondering y i left a useless tag on ur blog, it's cause i suddenly realised i can change it.. sorry! and if u've got the sense to come back to this blog to check out, u're smart! =)

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being sick sucks. this shall serve as a reminder the next time i try to devise all sorts of methods to get myself sick. =X

chinese new year is over. so is my birthday. so it turns out there are lotsa nice ppl who remembers! =D to those who dun.. ha. =P

and now.. only the o levels to look forward to. =)

i think i shall change my blog to diaryland sometimes.. =)

pointless trying to try

i turn sweet 16 tody! so.. happy birthday to me! =) thanks loads to thsoe who gave me sth!! =) all the presents were really great- i've no idea how to do sth lik that to u all in return, but i'll try my bestest, k? =)

it's chinese new year's eve today too. the school's celebration. was as ____ as usual. den.. later going to have reunion dinner! but it's only within the family la. and mum cooked! ha. loooking forward to a delicious sumptous meal! =) and going to chinatown later. hope my siblings won't kick up a fuss.. ah well..

it's always like that. ALWAYS. ppl, just read in between the times and figure out my cause of anguish. -.-

i'm crap.

i sound very submissive, if u read the title. sighs. just accept, u can't fight destiny or fate.

anyway, wonderful! so many ppl managed to read in between the lines!! congrats! this calls to attention that i'm such a predictable person. =X ah well..

my birthday's coming.. yay yay! finally, i can watch nc16! ok, really kidding only.. actually.. sweet sixteeN! and chinese new year!! =D

np tmr. how this just dampens my mood.

o yea. bad day today. i was sooo convinced i'm not ready for o levels, all thanks to the surprise physics test and the math test AND the stupid chinese lesson AND english lesson. i really wonder. how to handle? how to success? is it that my hard work is not enough?!! =(

life's about waiting. i can't wait for so many things.

for the short termed ones, i can't wait for tmr's week to be over. i can't wait my birthday to come. i can't wait for chinese new year to come. i can't wait for my o levels (ps, of course there's the hidden meaning! read between the lines).

and well, long term. perhaps the break outta the daily everyday routine. i'm getting bored. and just a few things.

and my birthday? perhaps it's goign to be special this year.. just before chinese new year leh.. so there.. =P

yep, the moon's blue tonight, thus i decided to tag. hahas..

this week.. hadn't been brillant. but well, i can still bear. but i still can't wait till it's over!

ah.. my birthday.. drawing ever closer.. yay! den after that, will be chinese new year. den i can wear my new clothes! yay! =D

something about my birthday.. ah.. fancy havin to order all my presents! it's as if it's imperative my frens have to give me sth. makes my feel very.. uncomfortable.. ah well... i have to give them sth too anyway.. so.. fair's fair..

ic an't wait for the week to be over. but i don't want another wednesday to come either.

my plans to revision always went outta the window. sighs. guess i'm not as disciplined as i thought.

really have nothing to say.. except. i love my 6230 too much! =D thanks to my dad!! =D

(lost count of how many days to sweet16)

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school's opening... i really wonder when i'll be online again.. ah well..

today.. went for tuition.. at orchard. eh! that teacher!! was so fast! and i couldn't catch up! arrgh! i wonder. sighs. mayb i am stupid or sth. =(

sighs. i have much to do. perhaps later.

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well, it's the new year! despite everything, happy new year, everyone! =)

ahh.. school is opening.. can u feel 'atmosphere' in the air? everyone's (ok, mayb not everyone, but most people) rushing homework, and i'm no exception. there's stil lthe geog project, and badly completed math and matrixes! arrgh.

anyway... having tuition tmr. yes, tuition on a sunday. i did say i set sunday as rest day, but sighs. i couldn't find any other days.

since school is starting, perhaps is should expect to go online. yes. ah well. i'd rather be busy with schoolwork den np stuff. sighs.

it' new year's eve!!! haven't been doing much writing.. especially in my diary... and blog!

i wonder.. what would be my new year resolution? i haven't really got this new year resolution every year.. but i would like to think of this year as different.. =D but i can't think of any resolution to help me.. and that i HAVE to keep it.. hmmm...

it's a bad way to end the year (or start a new year, depending on how u look at things). especially with the killer wave incident. but i believe where there are bad things.. there will be good things. it's to keep the balance balanced...

finally the camp is over, and i survived. i didn't really came out unscath though. =X next year... there will be plenty of np. but... what doesn't kill u make u stronger...

oman. there's still loads i haven't done. 3 projects. THREE?! darn...

oman. i'm feeling so crappy now. yes, camp tmr. camp. camp. camp. i will survive, won't i? WON'T I?!

anyway, yeah, play com to destress.. actually wanna do matrixes de.. but heck. i'm too nervous to concentrate. need to relax and destress. pah. PAH.

[am in a stage that i can't concentrate. ha. wonderful]

"Karma"- Alicia Keys

Weren't you the one who said that you don't want me anymore
And how you need your space and give the keys back to your door
And how I cried and tried and tried to make you stay with me
And still you said your love was gone and that I had to leave
Now you're Talking bout a family
Now you're saying I complete your dreams
Oh
Now you're sayin I'm your everything
You're confusing me
What you saying to me, don't play wit me, don't play wit me
Cause....

[Chorus:]
What goes around comes around
What goes up must come down
Now who's cryin', desirin' to come back to me
What goes around comes around
What goes up must come down
Now who's cryin, desirin', to come back

I remember when I was sittin home alone
Waitin for you til 3 o'clock in the 'morn
And when you came home you'd always have some sorry excuse
Half explaining to me like I'm just some kind of a fool
I sacrificed the things I wanted just to do things for you
But when it's time to do for me
You never come thru
Now you wanna be up under me
Now you have so much to say to me
Now you wanna make time for me
Whatcha doin to me, you're confusin me
Don't play with me don't play with me cause

[Repeat Chorus 2x]

I remember when I was sittin home alone
Waitin for you till 3 o'clock in the 'morn
Night after night knowing something goin on
Wasn't long before I be gone
Lord knows it wasn't easy believe me
Never thought you'd be the one that would deceive me
And never do what you're supposed to do
No need to approach me fool, cuz I'm over you

[Chorus]

Gotta stop trying to come back to me

[Chorus]

It's called Karma baby and it goes around

all thanks to ky, i've found the song! -three cheers for ky!- =D

today... i'm so tired. i slept so late yesterday that i woke up- remarkably late today. yes, should be meeting at 7.10am, and i only woke up at that time. was frantic, but when got to school, felt more lik sullen. no one cared. no that i expected anyone to.

apparently, i got the wrong idea of who's the complaining whiny bitch. now i noe who. as i've said, whiny bitch. but yeah, i didn't do nothing. so yeah, fine. (feels very frustrated)

[no one gives a damn]

o yeah, did i forget to mention, my handphone's spoilt. the battery leaks. and nope, mum is NOT getting a 6230 for me. great. nvm, i noe money is short now.. but i don't even have a hp to use!! argh.

[what goes around comes around; what goes up must come down]
nice catching of lyrics, simin! =) in fact, i think my blog can be centred around the whole of this sentence! =)

today. np. yes. am still can't waiting for it all to just&nbs p;END. i really believe it'll be ok once it all ends. yes, once it's the end, everything'll be ok. obviously i'm not ok now, so that means it's not the end. stupid camp. for once, i agree, u should just cancel it. hahas. not funny.

am feeling so bitter. =( sighs. i don't like being busy with np. no, i hate it. and can u imagine it? course on eve of xmas, and promo on eve of new year! is this a signal to wat next year might be? no pls..

[what goes up must come down]
i must be seriously on the down now.. down down down... this sucks.

no offense, but i think karma is more believable than some stuff.

ok, i feeel lik changing blog.. where i can put my templete. =X but no.. no time le.. mayb next year after the o.. so faar away.. =(

as i've said.. one day is over. and the 2nd part of promo is tmr. great.  [don't wish to comment]

i don't feel lik going to np tmr and (direct translation from chinese) see people's face colour. really don't. REALLY DON't.

[gets the feeling of crap just thinkin about np] why i can't i just enjoy life like other people?

oh, and i've got no idea about the promo tmr. i don't even know if it'll be after the parade. i don't know anything. and it sucks.
to be left out in the dark

{but what if u don't bounce at all? the kinetic energy will have to go somewhere, and if it's not hard enough, u just crack} just some food for ur thoughts, as chermaine always love to say.. =P

anyway... promo today.. SIGHS. it's almost a confirm fact i wo'nt be doing very well. in fact, i won't dare to say fail cause there's already much against against me and i don't need more cursings from myself. and i just can't believe my attention actually wandered away when i was shouting commands. mayb i deserve to fail.. but i tried my best, ok?! it's JUST NOT FAIR to TRY SO HARD but FAIL. hard work is supposed to lead to success!!!! come ON! but it's only the WOC. MOI's wed. wonderful. one day to rest. not to mention there's this first aid course on CHRISTMAS EVE?!

[it's only so much more longer]

hey ppl, i GRADUATED! u're suppose to congratulate meeee!! thank you SO much, ky! =D

i'm so freaking pissed. fine. i don't want be lousy assistant coordinator anymore. fine i did nothing. fine i suck. wat i predicted has arrived and bite me in the ass. fcuk. no that i tried very hard to prevent it. fcukity fcuk. i'm so pissed. so freaking.

yes, i'm finally back from australia, sydney!! was so relieved when the plane touched down that i kept jumping about and cheering, cause YES, i'm finally BACK!

anyway, had fun there. just that i really REALLY minded getting up early at the crack of dawn. the people there were VERY friendly and nice. of course there were exceptions , but on the overall, i think they're pretty nice people.

other than that, everything there was like soooo damn expensive. and having their currency higher than us didn't help.

as for the plane ride, i hate it. when we flew there, i almost wanted to just give up and mayb die. ha. when we arrived there, i actually considered immigratin there so i won't have to take the plane back. ha. i was that desperate. but dad bought this motion sickness pill, which i took. ok, it did helped.. but mum kept saying i'm not really motion-sicken.. just psychologially being affected too much. mayb she has a point.. but.. i dunno.. and o, the sun there? sets only about 8pm.. wat a long day... hahas..

anyone knew the reason why i went there although i've been there 6 years ago? well, mum's graduating there, from the Australian National University, located at Camberra, the unkown capital. (hahas) really cool, watching her going up and being presented the certificate. i decided i also want to graduate. it was sooo grand, and the robes were magnificent and just grand! hahas..

 i've graduated!! haha.. congratulate meee!! =P

the trip... we visited the Blue Mountains and the Sydney Opera house. really nice.. ah.. feeling lazy, and just don't feel like elaborating. hahas.. sorry!

so yep, i just knew that after this wonerful overseas trip is over, my holiday is over too. all np stuff coming right up. just great. i've even got promo on monday.. in the afternoon?! sighs....

moving onto greater things in the world.. charmed!! yay! even though i was away.. i watched the recorded on.. i think the title's supposed to be 'i dream of phoebe'? supposed to be drew fuller's fave episode toO! hahas! and yeo, as usual, he looked great! =P
watched the first princess diaries too!! it was nice.. i suppose.. oman.. all of a sudden.. i decided the idea of having a tiara it GREAT! =P

o, if interested, visit mypicgallery!! at the top left hand link! =)

ah.. the past two days (including today) was 'devoted' to np. some sana course. got a splitting headache the first day. ever felt like puking and feeling hungry at the same time? arrgh. really felt like crap.

going to australia tmr. ha. will be on the plane same time tomorrow.. argh. hopes i won't puke too much. -crosses finger-

am trying to find some nice sings to put in my mp3. =D hahas. yeah, back to the illegal p2p program. sighs.

hope i have a nice trip! =)

yay... i'm so glad i finally got charmed season finale!! IT ROCKS. but SIGHS. chris DIED! it's soooo not fair to kill such a good looking guy, but hey, it's most probably cause he doesn't want to act.. ah well..

i've oso got new cds! yay! all wonderful thanks to wonderful jane!! =)

today went out with chermaine. took some neos again. burnt a BIG hole in my pocket.. sighs. i'll scan them in later.. just visit mypicgallery if interested! =)

sighs. np tmr. should turn in early today.. but sighs.

nothing much. but guess what. there's going to be a freaking sana course just before i leave singapore. wonderful, at least i'll noe how harmful drugs are before arriving at australia. =X

nothing much to say for today. except i did my work. yeah..  usual crappy math, have been on it for sooooo long, and it's not complete yet. sighs.

monday- work at home
tuesday- out with yiling, jane, suyi and yam wen
wed- out to grandma's house
thurs- out with cher
fri- SANA FREAKING COURSE
sat- SANA course

ok, how to pack? =(

brrr... is today a cold day... so cold!!

okok, so it's illegal, but hey... sighs. nvm.. i can always go buy some new cds, except that i'm broke. flat broke. and the electricity bill going up ain't helping.

just finished princess diaries book four!! yay!! it rocks, as usual..! and and the thing about secret talent. mayb i'm those ppl without talent. that sucks. sighs.

what's more sucky is my sis' ever whining about her being fat. as if. mayb she has been too much influened by the princess' diaries.. hahs.

i'm reconsidering my ambition as scientist. mainly cause i doubt my ability and my objective. i don't really feel like helping this world (do we deserve it in the first place?) and yeah, i really doubt my ability. sighs.. mayb a forensic career in the singapore police force? ha. i doubt my observation skills and my skills to even interact well. but hey, what the heck, i'll just let my dream remain a scientist, ok? hahas.

i really shouldn't be doubting myself too much. =X

today.. nothing much. just that for once, the np visit to the police cantonment (dunno how to spell) centre.. it was rather interesting, the talk there i meant. especially that forensic talk. hey, i could always look to being a forensic scientist instead. hahas.. all the crime books i've read.. it's rather interesting..

didn't do work today.. and there's still that geog project still sitting there and waiting. not to mention the few stacks of math practice paper. SIGHS.

nvm.. i've a headache.. argh...

ok, i seriously need some website where i can find some website to download songs. i daren't install imesh or those programe.. in case those virus, u know.. anyone with ANY GOOD WEBSITES?!

sighs. is this ever boring. but i totally gave up on math. half the time i just can't get the right answer. the other half of the time? i dun even noe how to start. this is hopeless.. =X maybe worse than hopeless.

i don't like doing nothing. not preparing anything, especially for np. but hey, no one asked me to do anything. so heck.